Who am I, who was I, who will I be (short essay)

Before, I was free -- free to be and do whatever the mood sets me. I was so carefree. I had the freedom to choose and decide by myself. But circumstances happened -- out of my control -- changing me, changing everything about me. I was trapped in a horrible room. A room full of darkness -- of sorrow and of loneliness. I started to pretend to be someone who I'm not -- grinning and smiling outside but bleeding and broken inside. Though, there are still things which make me forgot the pain and disappointment, and somehow give rise to a genuine smile. I always aimed to be happy. However, I can't feel the way I wanted to be. Nevertheless, I keep on hoping that I would become someone or if not, even just be almost alike with the person I want to be -- jolly, carefree, untied, optimistic, hopeful, never become lonely. Hence, I know, through perseverance and industry, I'll find the hapiness I'm searching for...

(CONTINUATION ON THE PROCESS)

Vengeance is in my Heart

I am good...

I could be a good friend...

or maybe the best friend you'll ever find

PERO...

'wag niyo akong susubukan...

'wag niyo akong aapakan...

'wag niyo akong aapihin...

at lalong 'wag niyo akong mamaliitin...

I am good...

YET...

An EVIL one...

Vengeance is just at my hand...

And I could be the worst enemy you'll ever find...

VENDETTA... REVENGE...

You'll pay...

You'll pay it by your LIVES...

Vengeance is in my heart...

I don't have peace,

I'm not happy...

I wanted to die...

I want to end my sufferings...

However, the VENGEANCE live in my heart

And it keeps it beating...

YES... VENGEANCE is the reason why I live...

I wanted to REVENGE...

I wanted them to pay........

for hurting me........

for they belittle me........

for they insulted me........

for they downgrade my dignity...

A curse was left.....

And it will be realize...

And be fulfilled...

SOON....

Ako ngayo'y nag-iisa, nagdurusa...

Araw-araw puro na lang problema...

Buong buhay ko nangunguna...

Pinanganak ako sa mundo ang umpisa...

Pinagsisisihan ko tuloy ba't nabuhay pa...

Ba't ako'y binuhay pa 'di naman pala kaya......

Hinanakit at galit...

Namamayani sa aking dibdib..

Gusto ko ng kapayapaan...

Ngunit 'di ko makamtan...

Sumpa ay dapat maisakatuparan...

Upang matamo inaasam na kaligayahan;

At magkaroon ng kalayaan...