How I Wish

I was on a vacation when I first saw him
He was so cute and gentle
And is the reason why I'd fallin for him
I want to know him, but I was not given a chance...

I was so sad when the time came,
I have to left without knowing him;
Day and night passed,
I can't sleep without him on my dream.

One night, I opened my eyes
So sweet and romantic, we're dancing
He's about to tell me his name
When... Ringgg..Ringgg...
My alarmclock ring.

Ohh! It's a dream again
I wanted to know him
But the time passed
I accepted that he's gone...

But alas! The time came, I saw him;
I met him on an indifferent situation
Now, he had someone,
Someone to love, someone to lean on...

My feelings had grown once more
But what should I do,
Knowing that his someone is a friend of mine
Ohh! My heart wanted to burst!!

He learned about my feelings
So secretly, he courted me
I answered yes...
We became one...

But my friend learned about our relation
He have to choose
And of course, he chose my best pal
My heart was broken.

How fool, I am to hope for his love
How stupid I am to destroy the trust of my pal
I hated myself;
Two important persons in my life left me...

I have regreted of what I've done
I'm wishing that I could bring back time
How I wish that everything would be fine
But I know it won't,
Damage has already been done...

Though, I'm still hoping;
I'm still wishing...
"How I wish... How I wish..."
Is the only thing I could say...

Ba't Nabuhay Pa

Di malaman ang dahilan
Di mawari ang kasagutan
Ba't pa ba nabuhay yaring nilalang
Ayon sa iba'y wala namang pakinabang

Inutil daw ako, 'yon ang sabi nila
Kay sakit isiping 'yon ang kanilang paniniwala
Para sa akin ang lahat ay ginawa,
Bigyan lang nila nang halaga...

Ako ngayo'y nagdurusa
Pinagsisishan ko tuloy ba't nabuhay pa
Ba't ako'y binuhay pa, 'di naman pala kaya
Ba't ako ang dapat na maghirap sa kasalanan nang iba

Puro na lang problema...
Buong buhay ko ang nangunguna,
Ipinanganak ako sa mundo ang umpisa;
Pang-araw-araw ko ay puno nang pagdurusa
O bakit ba nabuhay pa..?

Ako ngayo'y walang magawa, kundi umasa
Darating isang araw magigising di na
Pagkat kung hindi, baka nagpakamatay na
Yaring kawawang nilalang na nag-iisa, nagdurusa...