How I Wish

I was on a vacation when I first saw him
He was so cute and gentle
And is the reason why I'd fallin for him
I want to know him, but I was not given a chance...

I was so sad when the time came,
I have to left without knowing him;
Day and night passed,
I can't sleep without him on my dream.

One night, I opened my eyes
So sweet and romantic, we're dancing
He's about to tell me his name
When... Ringgg..Ringgg...
My alarmclock ring.

Ohh! It's a dream again
I wanted to know him
But the time passed
I accepted that he's gone...

But alas! The time came, I saw him;
I met him on an indifferent situation
Now, he had someone,
Someone to love, someone to lean on...

My feelings had grown once more
But what should I do,
Knowing that his someone is a friend of mine
Ohh! My heart wanted to burst!!

He learned about my feelings
So secretly, he courted me
I answered yes...
We became one...

But my friend learned about our relation
He have to choose
And of course, he chose my best pal
My heart was broken.

How fool, I am to hope for his love
How stupid I am to destroy the trust of my pal
I hated myself;
Two important persons in my life left me...

I have regreted of what I've done
I'm wishing that I could bring back time
How I wish that everything would be fine
But I know it won't,
Damage has already been done...

Though, I'm still hoping;
I'm still wishing...
"How I wish... How I wish..."
Is the only thing I could say...

Ba't Nabuhay Pa

Di malaman ang dahilan
Di mawari ang kasagutan
Ba't pa ba nabuhay yaring nilalang
Ayon sa iba'y wala namang pakinabang

Inutil daw ako, 'yon ang sabi nila
Kay sakit isiping 'yon ang kanilang paniniwala
Para sa akin ang lahat ay ginawa,
Bigyan lang nila nang halaga...

Ako ngayo'y nagdurusa
Pinagsisishan ko tuloy ba't nabuhay pa
Ba't ako'y binuhay pa, 'di naman pala kaya
Ba't ako ang dapat na maghirap sa kasalanan nang iba

Puro na lang problema...
Buong buhay ko ang nangunguna,
Ipinanganak ako sa mundo ang umpisa;
Pang-araw-araw ko ay puno nang pagdurusa
O bakit ba nabuhay pa..?

Ako ngayo'y walang magawa, kundi umasa
Darating isang araw magigising di na
Pagkat kung hindi, baka nagpakamatay na
Yaring kawawang nilalang na nag-iisa, nagdurusa...

Death

Before, I live life full of happiness
I can do everything without hesitation
I have my freedom
But circumstances drew near changing my life...

I was trapped in a room
A room full of darkness
A room of sorrow
I can't even see a single ray of light.

As time past by, I became so lonely
No one had saved me
No one was there to help me
No one was their to be my company...

One day came, a man opened the door
My savior, I exclaimed;
But I was wrong
A demon, that was the guy really is.

He let me suffer; he punished me
Until such time came,
I couldn't take it anymore
Between life and death, I have to choose...

At first, I thought, I couldn't do it
I thought, I couldn't have the strength,
I won't have the courage I needed
But, I made it, I really made it.

I gain the strength
I had the courage to choose
And do you know what I'd chose?
I chose................

DEATH!!!

Searching for Happiness

I have many questions in my mind

But there is no one to answer me;
No one tries to answer me.
How about you? Are you willing to help?
Ohhh... There are just many why's and what's...

Why do I feel like this, so lonely?
I have many acquaintances, yet, I'm so lonely;
I just wanted to be happy
But why is it I can't feel the way I wanted to be?

Why am I alone?
Why do everybody had left me
Or maybe in the other way around?
What forced me to be parted with them?

I'm just wondering if they cared for me
Because if they do so,
Why didn't they get me out from this darkness?
Didn't they realize that I also have feelings?
That I also get hurt and become sad?

What if I didn't leave?
What my life would be?
Will I became happy?
Will I not feel so lonely?

Ahhh... Everything is nonsense
Although I still have a lot of questions
I won't pursue this anymore
Even you couldn't help me right?

All I wanted in this moment is to know who could answer me
Who? Who among you could answer my questions?
No one. No one answers me.
No one is with me. Yeah, I'm all alone in my darkness...

But you know what?
I believe that all of these questions will vanish
And light will shower upon me, if I only find,
If I only find the happiness I'm searching for...

It's All My Fault

Missing You So Much

Before, you're always with me,

Keeping me warm and safe

I'm just so contented of who I am and what I have;

I'm just so happy that you're always on my side.

Just then, a disaster came,

You left me, you left me alone...

You won't be back I know,

Yet, I'm hoping... I'm really hoping.

I thought, I can't continue my life without you

But, I made it, I made it...

I live life... full of loneliness...

'Coz you know what, you're my life...

It's not really easy living without you,

I always feel sad and lonely,

I always think that the world is against me...

Oh... I don't know how to live without you

I want you back, I really wanted you back

I missed you so much

I'm missing you so much...

My Lonely Poems

It's Too Late

There is a special person whom I'd like to thank

She's one of the greatest person I ever known

She's so great that she sacrifice a lot for my sake

She's the best, she really is..

Before, expressing what I really feel was so hard for me

Yet, when the time came

I'm ready to tell what is in my heart

It became to late for me..

I wanted to tell her that I love her

And how much I care..

I wanted to acknowledge how intense my affection is..

Yet, it became too late for me...

It's too late for me,

It's too late for me realizing how important she is.

Its too late for me, it's really too late.

Now, she's gone....

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Prudenzz 4ever

In my life, I had gone to many places
I had met variety of people
Some became close to my heart,
Some... I regret that I met them...

As I have travelled,

I met a group of people which really inspired me

They can make me laugh,
Even deep inside me, my heart is bleeding..

These people made me feel special,

They made me feel that somebody cares for me,

That I am important
That I am worthy for what they are giving to me.

These people, do you know who are they?

They are my inspiration,
They are one of the reason why I'm still living
They are.... PRUDENCE...

Kaya all I can say is...
PRUDENZZZ 4ever...........

Seniors day and

Fare well party

namin at Riverside...

Graduation photo ko...

Picture taken sa

labas nang bahay ng

adviser namin after

our Graduation ball....

Graduation Ball

namin sa Hotel Del Rio

This picture was taken

during the graduation

of my brother
in elementary....

prudenzzz rockzzz

My Own Shakespearean Sonnet

My Only One

I always think you'll be the right person for me,
The one who can give me love so eternally.
I gave all my trust in you 'coz it cost for me,
I know by myself and thought you love me truly.

But now, all my aspirations become undone,
For I heard from a friend you're in love with someone.
And for that, all my expectations had been gone.
My heart surrendered because you're my only one!

And at the moment, I am with my loneliness,
But I believe that there's a right man to exist,
The one who will love, get me out of this darkness,
Despite of my weaknesses, he will still persist.

Though, thanks for comin' in my life, making it bright
'Coz even you stayed not so long, you gave it light…

My Only One
(Revision)

Winter comes. Oh! The cold season is near...
Star brings spirit, sky glitters with glory
Trees whisper, cold wind whistle, oh dear!
They talk! I remember past memory...

Oh! I don't want to remember the past.
It hurts, vow of love so eternally
A love that I thought will forever last
Unfulfilled love that was facsimile!

I thought you're for me -- you're my only one
But at present, I am with my darkness
'Coz a friend told, you're in love with someone
And that is why I'm full of loneliness..!

Though, thanks for comin' into my eyesight
'Coz even for a while, you gave it light…

Tula ng Kasawian

Kasalanan
(Unang Yugto)

Mundo ay nagliwanag nang una kang makita
Puso ko ay kumabog-kabog sa kaba
'Di ko nga mawari ang nadarama
Pag-ibig na nga kaya ito sinta?

Nagdaan ang mga araw at tuluyan kitang nakilala
'Liban sa pisikal na kaanyuan, kay bait mo pa pala
Kaya marahil, nararamdaman sumidhi pa
Tuluyang umusbong, pag-ibig na 'di mapaliwanag sa tuwina

Ngunit puso ko'y nabigo nang ako'y may nalaman
May nagmamay-ari na raw sa iyo ayon sa isang kaibigan
Biglang nabuwal pangarap kong walang hanggan
Para sa ating ligayang pangmatagalan...

Pero ang natalalas ay di pumigil
Sa pusong nag-aasam na ibigin;
Kasalanan man sa turing, di ako papipigil
Para sa akin, ito'y kabanal-banalang mithiin.

Masakit man, ako'y aasa pa rin,
Darating isang araw at ako'y mapapansin;
Kasalanan man sa turing, ika'y patuloy na iibigin
Pakiramdam ko ba'y 'di ako buo pag di ka kapiling.

Patuloy akong aasa na susuklian mo rin
Pag-ibig kong kasalanan kung ituring...



Panakip Butas
(Ikalawang Yugto)

Isang araw ng kalungkutan,
Lumuluha maging kalangitan.
Akala'y masamang bukas ang daratnan
Ngunit ika'y aking nasilayan
Ako'y muling nabuhayan.

Ikaw sana'y lalapitan, nang aking mamasdan
Ikaw ay luhaan, di mawari ang dahilan
Nang aking mapagtanto, kanya ka na naman palang nilinlang, pinaglaruan
Di ko nga alam ba't sarili'y pinagpipilitan.

Ako'y nag-isip, ika'y nilapitan at sinaluhan
Inilabas sa akin mga dinaramdam, parang isang batang luhaan
Nang lumaon, di ko na mapaliwanag nararamdaman
Tuluyan na nga yatang nahulog sa'yo hirang.

Nagdaan ang panahon nang di ko namamalayan
'Pagkat akala ko ligaya'y wala nang hanggan
Ngunit ipinahiram lamang
Ipinalasap sa pusong nag-aasam.

Isang araw na di inaasahan
Siya pala'y magbabalik, hihingin iyong kapatawaran
Agad siyang pinatawad at ako'y iniwan
Akala ko, minahal mo rin ako...

'Yon pala'y ginawang panakip butas lamang!!!

Bakit?
(Ikatlong Yugto)

O, bakit? Bakit mo nagawa ito...
Sa taong tunay na nagmamahal sa'yo?
Iyong winasak, dinurog puso't damdamin ko
Iniwang nag-iisa't luhaan ako.

Ibinigay ko sa'yo lahat lahat, maging puso't aking kaluluwa,
Pero bakit mo ito nagawa sinta?
Ako'y iyong iniwang nag-iisa, nagdurusa
Bakit mas pinili mo pa siya? O, bakit siya pa?!!
Isang salawahan at di tunay ang nadarama...

Heto ako, handang gawin lahat para sa'yo
Iniukol buong buhay ko,
Isusuko kahit ano upang mahalin mo...
Narito lang ako, nakaalalay palagi sa iyo
Pero bakit? O,bakit nagawa ito...
Sa taong lubos ang pag-ibig sa iyo?

Ginawa ko ang lahat para ika'y mapaligaya,
Binigay sa'yo lahat lahat hanggat makakaya!
Di ko alam kung ano maling nagawa,
Nagmahal ako nang tapat,
'Yon pala, kahit ako ay di pa sapat..!

Kakayanin Ko

(Ikaapat na Yugto)

Ako ngayo'y nag-iisa, 'pagkat may iba ka na
Di ko alam, makakaya ko ba na ika'y maagaw nang iba?

Kakayanin ko ba na ika'y mawala sinta?

Ngunit ano aking magagawa ba't nagtatanong pa...

Alam ko namang tinitibok nang iyong puso ay siya!!!

At sinisigaw nang iyong isipan ay pangalan niya...

Kay sakit nang aking nadarama

'Pagkat ako pala ay di mo talaga sinisinta;

Ginawa ko na ang lahat upang iyong mahalin,

Ngunit, para sa iyo, kulang pa rin!

Mahal kita, alam mo ba?
Kaya gagawin lahat para ika'y mapaligaya...

Tatanggapin kahit gaano kasakit ang madarama

Kung sa kanya ka liligaya, pakakawalan kita!..

Kakayanin ko lahat kung iyong ikasasaya

Ganyan talaga kita kamahal sinta;

Handa akong magdusa para sa iyong ikaliligaya.

Masakit mang tanggapin, aking kakayanin

Na mawawalay ka na sa aking piling...

Ngunit bago matapos ang lahat, may nais akong malaman...

Kakayanin mo kayang ako'y pagmasdan

Kakayanin mo kayang ako'y makita

Ako na tunay na umiibig sa'yo ay lumuluha?

Sugat
(Ikalimang Yugto)

Sa dami nang aking napagdaanan
Tama nga palang tawaging kasalanan
Mahalin ka't umasang mahalin mo ri sa katagalan
Pagkat sa ngayon, ako'y lubusang nasaktan
Sa pagsusumamong pag-ibig ko ay masuklian.

Marahil nagkamali nga ako na umasang mahalin mo
Pagkat ang paglisan mo'y halos ikamatay ko;
Pagkat 'di ko alam kong paano
Paano mabuhay nang wala ka sa piling ko...

Nagkamali ako, inaamin ko sa iyo
Ngunit sa kabila nito,
Pagsisisi'y di mo maaninag sa aking anyo
Pagkat sa kabila nang lahat, alam mo?
Ako'y lumigaya sa iyo
Pagkat kahit sandali lang, naramdaman ko
O marahil nasa isip ko lang na minahal mo rin ako.

Nagayon nga'y ako'y natuto
Kapag ang isang tao, pinilit mo
O nagpalubag loob lang sa iyo
Tiyak babalik din ito
Sa tinitibok, sinisigaw, binubulong nang kanyang puso...

Ngunit magagawa ko ay ano?
Napagsabihan ko na naman sarili ko,
"I must move on, that's the right thing to do..."
Pero ano? Wala, wala pa ring pagbabago
Bihag mo pa rin puso't damdamin ko...

Now, I am thinking, "I need someone new..."
Yeah, right! Kaylangan ko nang bago
"Yon bang tunay na iibigin ako
At tutulong na hilumin ang sugat na iniwan mo...